a bit of backstory…

Welcome to my first ever blog post! I have a lot of anxiety as I’m typing this, so be patient everyone. Currently it’s Halloween and I’m having a lot of mixed emotions – I’m sad because it isn’t my year with my kids, I’m anxious because I’m waiting for a photo of my 2 year old in her costume, and when I get to pick up my 5 year old from her dad. I’m also having a lot of cravings right now. This is my first Halloween sober in more years than I’d like to admit, and that’s a pretty big change. My solution? Attend an NA meeting. I have an amazing virtual home group that I attend every day. I committed to 90 meetings in 90 days for the beginning of my recovery, and I’m still maintaining my daily meeting attendance. Today I am 114 days sober, and that seemed like an impossible task.

Update: no 5 year old home tonight. FML. Reminding myself to breathe. It’s a good thing she’s spending extra time with her dad, this is something I wanted for so long. Accept the break while I have it. I have to remind myself of this a lot lately. Having a relationship with her dad is important and I want to encourage that.

Okay, back to where I was before this. Today is a gratitude meeting, like every Monday is. So I challenge you to think about this – what are three things you are grateful for today? If it’s people in your life, tell them so they know. Gratitude is an action word.

I’m going to wrap this up here, need to have something to write about tomorrow!

Thank you for reading! Have a good 24 hours everyone! Happy Halloween!!